let the stars keep track of us

sixfeetunderthestars

Friday, December 28, 2007
you caught me cause you want me then one day you just let go

i am having the worst christmas vacation ever...i just stay in front of the computer all day ..nothing new ever happpens to me..well if there is, it isn't so surprising at all...boredom kills me pathetically.....the more i stay at home the more i remember him..think about him...miss him more...uhh..i miss the first time we've ever met. i couldn't call it love at first sight cause we haven't seen each other. we met in an online game..i was in love and so was he..he told me he loves me but i didn't told him my feelings for i was afraid that i might lose him.

he tried to win my heart thrice but i didn't give him a chance...i told him to wait but now he's gone..well not actually like let go of the feelings he had for me..he has to move to another country..but he promised he'd be back FOR ME..that's the sweetest thing he ever told me..i almost cried when he said that..we didn't keep in touch because i believe in the saying "absence makes the heart grows fonder" and he knew that.haha.that's the time i felt that i am really loving this person.it's not infatuation.it is LOVE.i don't know how i came up with that idea but nobody really knows when you're going to fall in love and to whom you're gonna fall to, right?

i didn't know it would feel that way. i am not hoping or expecting that one day we'd finally be together..time will tell..and it's up to us to make that decision..it's up to ME to make that decision happen..he doesn't know that i love him back but he's happy that he loves me...he always say that to me when he was still here in the Philippines but i never told him that i love him too.i always knew that one day, he might lose hope but look...he's still there waiting for me...waiting to see me one day and be his...one day i'd look back to this memory..on how i held on for my love for this guy.....and how he held his love for me too..i will never ever forget about this..till the older i get..

"i was sitting there waiting for you and i didn't know you're waiting for me too"

i love you ..